This past year our daughter was in Pre-K at a local private school. We had recently made the decision to homeschool and I was excited but I had my doubts.
I jotted down my thoughts one day while waiting in the carpool line:
“I doubt I’ll miss this carpool line next year. I’m sure we will have plenty of challenges, but waiting for 20 minutes in this long line won’t be one of them!
I wish I had a strong sense of peace and excitement about this homeschool journey, but I go back and forth. I’m afraid of failing, I’m afraid family and friends will judge us. I’m afraid that it would be too hard to juggle working from home, daily chores, homeschooling, blogging and squeezing in a social life. I am, however, excited to teach Claire. I’m looking forward to watching her grow more and more each day.
Life is short I don’t want to spend it behind the MacBook. I want to engage my children and build a strong relationship with them. I know homeschooling is the right step for us but geeze it’s a little scary!“
I was fighting with these fears:
Am I qualified enough?
What if I fail?
What if I give up?
What if I hate it?
What if our daughter hates it?
What will others think?
Will our family think we are crazy?
I had to bring all of these fears into the light and admit that I was terrified that I would FAIL.
In Jon Acuff’s book, “Quitter” he says:
“We become obsessed with the fear of finding out who we aren’t”
Acuff also says,
“We think that if we don’t do anything, we won’t make the wrong decision. But, not doing anything, is its own decision and the odds of failure are horrible.”
Got Doubts? Address your fears and move forward!
1. Talk to your spouse: Tell him how you are feeling, share your fears, concerns and take time to discuss your hopes too. He might have fears too. He is most likely your biggest fan and he’s there to cheer you on. Take time to discuss how your feeling so your husband can be praying, supporting and encouraging you along the journey.
2. Write it down: I love that I wrote down how I was feeling back in April. My fears are almost gone now! I’ve had time to pray, plan, and pray some more, and I’m ready to go now. Writing down my fears allowed me to admit how I was feeling and know how to pray. Now I can look back and see how God has answered my prayers!
3. Take a step: Do something! The first thing I did was tell my friends. Telling someone made it clear that I was taking a step forward. Stepping out in faith despite of my doubts and fears. Sometimes I think God is just waiting for us to take that first step. I love seeing how God has brought us confirmations and blessings ever since we took that first step.
Is this your first year homeschooling?
I would love to ‘meet’ you and connect so we can be a support to each other this year. Are you struggling with fears and doubts. I want to reassure you that having fears and doubts is normal and you have a great group of homeschoolers here at the Homeschool Village to cheer you on this year! Take a minute to leave a comment and introduce yourself!