I would say that most of us who homeschool know that a great benefit is that we can be flexible in our scheduling. What I didn’t expect and always seems to haunt me is the guilt that goes along with venturing from the norm or changing my planned schedule.
I know that we homeschool so that we can put our family first, and yet when we need to put our family first, I struggle.
I stress over scheduling make up days and how it will affect our school plans. I worry that maybe the time off is not necessary, even when I know that it is. I have even been known to get halfway through the day or past the event in the day that we had to take care of and suddenly decide that maybe I made the wrong decision after all since I feel so guilty and announce to my surprised children’s dismay that we are going to do school after all.
Of course on those days things usually don’t go well anyway, but maybe I will remember that the next time I attempt that plan.
Lately, we have faced a lot of difficulties in our family. While we knew that there were changes coming to our home this fall, the changes that we have faced were not at all the ones that we were expecting. So, I had some decisions to make. We had planned for time off, yet this was not what we had planned to take time off for. Our family was broken and needed time together, but what about school? I knew that due to our grief we all were lacking concentration, me in particular, yet I struggled with the decision to take a break. In the end my husband and I decided to take time off. I know that it was the best decision for our family.
The time we spent together was healing and I know that a distracted mother trying to teach distraught children would have hurt our relationships and been completely unproductive. I have decided not to worry about the guilt. I have chosen not to second guess my decision. It is done, and thinking about the what-ifs will not make anyone feel any better.
I do not regret my choice and now that I can see clearer, I know that it was the right decision.
Sometimes it’s healthy to embrace the break your family needs.