When the Lord calls you into a direction you thought you would never be, He will equip you to fulfill the task. I had to learn this the hard way.
I grew up in a public school and thought that I turned out ok but that was 20 years ago. Things have changed a ton in the last 20 years. Most all things I grew up doing I carried over into my own family. Attending a public school was one of them.
It wasn’t until we started running into issues at school, that did not line up with what we were teaching at home, that the Lord woke me up to my first encounter with Homeschooling. My son started having issues in school and I was not on board with how they would deal with things that did not go with our beliefs. We started praying and seeking the Lord on what He would have us do next.
He made it very clear that He wanted my son to be Homeschooled.
I will tell you that I was SCARED TO DEATH!
I started having it out with God, letting Him know that I could not do this. I did not have an education, I was not good at some of the subjects and most of all I have NO idea what I am doing.
He reassured me that since He brought me to this part in my journey, He would equip me to take this on.
I mean if David can take on a giant with a sling and a stone, I can take on homeschooling my son, right?
Once I got calm down and realized this was for real what the Lord wanted, all I could do was pray on what to do next. Though I pray a lot I have a big issue with stepping in front of God and getting into His way.
I did this a lot in our first year of Homeschooling. I had more bad days then I did good. There were days I would throw my hands up and tell God I just can’t do this. Why did you think that I could?
Then He would remind me, Sonya you are right YOU can not do this, but I CAN.
I heard that a lot over the first year. Once it finally sunk in that God has a BIG plan for my son and every time I try doing things MY WAY, I was getting in His way, I finally surrender my Homeschooling to Him.
What a difference it made in our days to come.
Our days were filled with joy. We got a lot accomplished. God showed me that He truly does not leave us or forsake us. The focus became on Him instead of Homeschooling. Once this happened God really starting moving in both of our hearts.
We ended our first year closer than what we started and changed hearts.
God showed me most importantly that we need to be on track with Him when it comes to our children because He has plans for them. Seeking His face to know just what He needs us to do to help that plan come to life only comes from a completely surrender heart.
Are you having a hard time letting God take over your Homeschooling? What is holding you back from surrendering to Him fully?
I would love to hear your thoughts in the comments below!
Wow this sounds just like me. God called me to homeschool before I even met my future husband and I was like “okay, we’ll cross that bridge when the time comes” . So when my oldest turned 5 we homeschooled her …I HATED it. I am a type A personality, while she is a happy-go-lucky type of kid. So when it was time for her to go to first grade. I was the first one in that public school. For four years I watched my two oldest get bullied by peers AND teachers. God kept pulling on my heart strings and telling me, “this is not what I want for your children…I didn’t give you 3 children to be raised by someone else” So this year I made the decision to homeschool all 3 children . Do I want to? My flesh doesn’t …my flesh says “you have been a stay-at-home mom for almost 11 years, it’s time for you to go back to college and start the career of your dreams” . But my spirit says..”God has a plan for you, he wouldn’t have laid this on your heart if it wasn’t going to make an impact. He will be with you through the good and the bad.” So as of Sept 4 of 2012 I will be homeschooling 3 children. Following God’s plan although I don’t know where it will lead, but I have such a peace that surpasses all understanding that’s it’s the right thing to do.
Oh Tina what a blessing to read that I am not the only one going through not wanting to embrace what God has called us to do. I can not wait to see what God does in your heart while embracing this call for your children. Blessings sweetie ~Sonya
Thank you..:)
I started balking at God’s leading about being a stay-at-home Mom. Man was that a rough year! By the time God brought up homeschooling I’d learned to get out of His way and pray. But I can so relate to this battle when God’s plan is something you never considered.
My husband and I made the decision for me to homeschool my youngest daughter this year. She is in the 6th grade and she would be going to middle school. We have two older daughters who are in high school. We felt that the youngest one would do better at homeschooling. Her personality is so much different than her two older sisters. After much prayer about it I started homeschooling her last week while her sisters went off to high school. The first day went great and I thought wow I can really do this. But of course the days after have not gone so smooth. So I am trying to leave it in God’s hands because I know he is in control of it and she will be better because of the decision that we made.